Sometime I feel like salt water, as if I am floating on the sea. At some point my body no longer feels like mine. When I don’t feel like I am drowning in myself I forget how to just be. My muscles twitch in anticipation for the fight against the tide. My heart remembers breaking like a reflex and my lungs often forget air. Sometimes I miss drowning when floating takes so much out of me. I wonder if I enjoy drowning or just forget I can do anything else. Is there anything else, besides drowning and floating?